As the title here states. I really do hate it. Between working a 7 day stretch with one day off to go straight back to another stretch, dealing with finding a way to move my stuff to another province, people demanding wedding details when there's none whatsoever, taking care of my mom, my godmother coming into town on Saturday, online responsibilities and messing up my buggered knee earlier today... I'm tired. Not to mention two of my fingers on my left hand have been "asleep" for the last two weeks. Probably frostbite. It may not seem like much to deal with but after however long of it it tends to burn a person out. I mean I haven't even really been playing games like Guild Wars, COD4 or Prince of Persia WW. I'll do SL considering that's pretty simple and mindless without expectations put on me cept for my job there which itself is straight forward. Well, maybe Pokémon Diamond or Zelda PH that my boyfriend got me as well as the DS, makes me feel not so alone to play it. Reminds me that he's still here for me even if we're so far apart. Like wearing the sweater he bought me. I just miss him. Lots. I also know he wants me playing COD4 with the clan and guys, but I'm not obsessive about the game. I like it, but... I dunno how to say it really. I'm not military minded so I don't understand the terms as quickly as they'd probably like, like a long time player or military personnel would. Both sides get frustrated. Mainly me. I want to get it right but the more I tried the worse I got and was told so. Or heard that I was a horrible player which didn't exactly boost my esteem. I know I'll get better the more I play, when I have time and patience for it though. I don't want him disappointed in me either so I tried. But with how much crap I have going on I haven't been able to play at all. Lol I mean yesterday I get off work and come online once I got finished with settling in at home, said hi to him and got a "you missed practice." Well, ok, that's nice. :P Nah he's not a jerk, he just wants me to play. I give up though on getting him to play Shaiya with me though, if he hasn't yet I know that miracle ain't gonna happen lmao.
Anyways not to continue my list of complaints, but a girl has to rant somewhere right? Blogs listen. Glooooooo blog!
On a more serious note though in regards to my move, things are going alright. I'll more than likely be using Greyhound to ship my stuff out to Ontario since I've determined it to be the cheapest I've found so far. Which is great considering it's tough to save up when there's bills to pay lol. So far it seems I have enough for the one way plane ticket out there and shipping some stuff, not sure about the bus ride between towns but there's time yet for that. Boxes. That reminds me... must get boxes. Not the kind that have been through the wringer so many times they'd fail me either. I should go check out the post office and see what they have. Hmmm...
I've also been doing a little knitting if/when I have some time to myself for thinking. Nothing fancy mind you, I still suck at it. :P But just a simple scarf. The repetativeness of it just relaxes me where I don't NEED to think if I don't want, I just concentrate on the loops. Some days you just need that. Especially since I had a bought of insomnia the other day as well. I think I was awake for over 48 hours or something, not sure. At at point it's "don't think, just do" which isn't so hard. You hardly notice you're that tired, well, maybe til you almost doze off but can't.
I've been taking my camera everywhere lately too, I love taking pictures even if not good at it.
Especially if you're taking them out the dirty window of a moving car. But yes, Winnipeg is a messy messy place in winter. I even saw a guy out in his shorts the day I took this in -28+ C weather. We're crazy people yes.
All in all I'll stop my post of random complainings and weirdness here for now so I can try laying down for the night. I think I may have left the ice pack on my knee a liiiiiittle too long lol. It's as cold as the snowbank. Plus I bet half the stuff I've rambled makes any sense at all. So yes. Sleep. or try. Been having trouble with that. Nighty night.
Isn't knitting nice and relaxing? Glad you're liking it! Hopefully once you get all moved things will be a lot less stressful.
ReplyDeleteAnd I totally hear ya about the 'regimented' video games. Sometimes, a girl just wants to play her game in her style at her own pace without worrying about what other people are doing. If you ever feel like hopping on GW in the midst of all your craziness, let me know and we can go kill red dots :D
EXACTLY!!! I'm not really one to be able to follow and keep up with that... I tend to be the rogue in that aspect. I normally party alone in any game since... erm... Iri don't play well with others. That doesn't always get through heads though so I just nod, smile and blah. We still need to get together for some knitting though.
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