Dunno what to do with myself.

Seriously. I don't.

I've been sick the last, we'll say, week and a half. Still trying to get over it and it's starting to get on my nerves. I had to phone in sick for two days and come home an hour early on another. That in itself annoyed me further. I'm still trying to catch up on the lack of sleep.

Otherwise... I'm kinda lonely. Ok more than "kinda" but that's besides my point. All my old friends are back in Winnipeg so it's more than a tad hard to hang out with them, especially when I'm more or less told to forget about them. Any new friends I've made or tried to make I can't seem to make a day with due to I'm working, they're working, both working, they're busy with their own lives already, they have kids, are having kids, just been married, are getting married, are getting ready to deploy, already deployed, moved away, are moving away...

It's frustrating. The only time I have a somewhat friendly conversation with actual human beings lately is when I'm at work serving the customer I'm talking to. And again lately, it's mostly them commenting on me being sick, asking why I'm not staying home or recommending things to help me get better. The answer usually ends up as "They don't pay me to stay home" and "Thanks, I'll try that, did you bring your points card?" and there's my interaction for the day, grab coat, walk home, pet cats, poke man in the back of the head while he's playing WoW, make dinner, sit at computer the rest of night, sleep, go to work... rinse repeat.

Well we did go get some groceries/baking stuff and drinks on Saturday... then came straight home to play WoW. Arg... even then I'm only talking to people over the mic generally about the game.

I normally dislike people as a whole but... I'm losing my mind.

Starting to ask the questions of, "What's this thing called romance you people keep talking about?", "What are friends?", "When did this movie release? Oh... last month? I see."

I'm also getting tired of people asking me what the wedding plans are. Over, and over, and over. There's no date. Yet. Period. No... I have no idea of even a ballpark guess when it could be. Yes, I picked out a dress and bought it to feel like I have SOME sort of control over the whole situation. No... it won't be the romantic thing you're probably dreaming (for me) that it'll be. No friends will be there. No family. You'll maybe know something if ever -I- know something. So please...
Just stop.

Gonna go make myself some chicken soup to kick this cold... maybe turn on the tv. What is tv? I'll find out again shortly. By myself. Or with a cat if it keeps it's attention span in focus for longer than 2 seconds.

... I seem to complain here more than really say anything of importance. Awesome.